Backdated post : Back to school

Jo finally back to school after 4 months resting in China (the last day was on 19/2). He cried and yelled by the time i left the school. Poor boy indeed for the first day, as his class teacher accidentally hurt his lip by pulling out the water bottle. The strap cut his lip and the blood just wet the tissue and dirty my hand.

He seemed very OK and happy yesterday and today, i hope he can keep this study spirit on and doesn't waste my money. I paid RM620 for this semester (included the June fee), but i really not sure can he study till November or not since i am thinking to go back to China after my confinement. But, hubby not supported my views as he said the life in China actually isn't good for a little baby. So how? I also don't know how and don't have the concrete planning.

I will consider to install an internet at home if i am really staying in Sabah till baby is more older, if not, very wasting the money to install it for 1 or 2 months only since Streamyx can't be cut off within 1 year.

The day in Macau

Backdated post.

The photo taken on 26 May 07, the day before we headed back to Sabah. Jo was actually wanted to show “peace” but ended up don't know what he wanted to show. The place is the famous place in Macau, (“Shan Ma Lou”), we purposely went there for the “double boiled egg & milk”(双皮奶) and doing some light shopping. I had bought a set of Biotherm products which is much more cheaper if compare the price in Sabah. Went back to Zhu Hai around 8pm, but the custom was so packed, by the time we reached in Zhu Hai was about 9ish pm, what a crazy and tired day again...

Finally received my first task from Blogvertise

I can't remember when i registered to Blogvertise, my blog has been approved in very fast manner, within a day or just few days..can't remember indeed. Blog has been approved but they never assigned task for me, maybe they have forgotten about me. Anyhow, i still waiting for them and finally i have received their first assignment on yesterday morning. Great, i hope the assignments can keep coming in though i know it is impossible as i heard some said they only received 2 or 3 tasks even their blogs have been approved for few months. The post paid not as high as PPP, but acceptable for 75 words. Not like SponsoredReview, keep declining my bids or sometimes counteroffer my bid into very low price.

I need this...VAPOR

I need this (humidifier) everyday from morning till night as long as the aircond is on. It does bring moisture to the room and lessing my sore dryness and dry skin. Weather is hot (about 32 degree) and dry these day, i can see there have blood stains on the Jo's pillow due to his cracked lip, i didn't apply any lipbalm for him but thinking to do it tonight provided i can find my lipbalm later. :)

I seldom go outside so i really don't know how hot is it, but i heard my maid said outside has a very big and bright sun. So, i went out to my balcony this afternoon, oh, gosh, it's so hot outside. I know, Sabah is more hotter than here..how to survive under a hot sun? That's a big question for a pregnant woman!

Back to normal

We're going to "Dong Men" today as hubby wanted to change money, but sad to say as we totally couldn't find one money changer over there and none of the bank is accepted Hong Kong dollar. We're just so poor as we don't have much China dollar in pocket, hubby forgot to change money before the long holiday started, and the Hong Kong dollar seems like so useless as we couldn't find one shop that willing to accept Hong Kong dollar. What a waste to go to shopping heaven but just don't have money to spend. I'm eyeing a Nike sandal but just can't buy as the shop doesn't accept neither Hong Kong dollar nor foreigner credit card.

Jo didn't have his nap after we're home as he was watching the Spider Man with papa till 6pm, he seemed very tired but just not willing to move himself to room. Finally he fell asleep on 7:30pm. I just couldn't get used to the situation as the living hall is just so silent for us. But, we have a great time as hubby and wife, we're watching TV and laughing together, and we could indulge ourself in eating potato chips and drinking cola..that's a wonderful night for us..

Suddenly feel like my hubby is so lovely..Maybe we're just so deprived of some heart-to-heart communication these days, anyway, i'm glad to see the situation is getting improved. Thanks to everyone's concern and even some prayers!

Blocking nose

I couldn't sleep well last night, due to the phlegm and blocking nose, i don't have runny nose but don't know why i couldn't breathe. Maybe the aircond that i turned on at noon, but i just turned on the living room one and let the cool wind blown into my bedroom. Then don't know how i just suffering the blocked nose after woke up from my afternoon nap. Jo also sneezing non-stop there, is it because the aircond is full of dust mite that spreading out the allergy germs? OMG....i heard my mother said currently KK is very hot, then how we going to survive under a hot sun but just can't turn on the aircond? Especially Jo, doctor already warned me don't let him have the aircond blast too often as it only aggravates his sensitive nose...oh dear, what should i do? I trembling once i start thinking this issue..You know, i have to take ice-cream everyday, somemore craving for cola too..this mommy so bad la, always forgotten the baby inside..no choice, i just feel very very hot! Sometimes i do feel guilty..

I just can't help myself..what a blue again!

I don't know whether I am currently suffered the prenatal blue or not, maybe I am not since I am able to tell and share with you..

So, maybe it is just an emotional unstable which caused by hormone changes. I don't know and can't stop myself to have the cry, I have been crying intermittently, nothing can stop me to have this on and off crying. I tried to sort out the problems (see, maybe I am not that serious to claim myself have the prenatal blue since I am able to sort the problems out), but just can't have concrete thinking and proper solutions to cope with my current situation.

I seem happy and nothing as from my hubby's mouth, of course, I just try to conceal my feelings and thinkings in front of him. For me, I always think there is not point for me to share my thoughts with him. Perhaps our relationship just deprived of communication or what..i am not sure, I just feel there is something there…he is good enough for family, he works hard for us and his parents..but I always think a family not only build up on work and money, I do hope to have a happy family but definitely not this current type. Friend said I should learn what is satisfaction as I don't need to work and we don't have financial crisis, but be frankly, I feel nostalgia for my ex-life in KL, though both of us needed to work and we couldn't have luxury enjoying, I tell you, I still prefer that kind of life at least I have my friends and my career there..somemore I was less lonely that time.

He is great as he never put me in any financial problems, but money is not everything. As a woman, I think I need more caring and concerns from my loved one rather than just know how to give me money. He is the one who likes to share his happiness and sadness with me, he would tell me about his daily happenings of course not in full detailed manner. The way he told maybe such a way to inform me..but he is totally can't share my happiness and sadness, he would show me the most hated sour face or talk sarcastically when I trying to share. That's why I said no point to tell him my currently dreary blues, it only will push me into more deeper hole instead of pulling me out.

I can't deny some of my blues are came from him, what a sudden I realized that he is just so irresponsible, especially for the No.2. I don't want to say it here as I really don't want there is a day my No.2 read his papa's thought from this blog. But, I seem helpless as I can't vent out my thoughts, I hate the way he said, for me I can't see any joyous spirit from him to welcome his son, though he always says he loves him. But what is love? Love is trying to keep apart from your son? His mindset is baby is troublesome (that's never happened when we were having Jo) especially baby needs night feeds. When I told him I will bring back the baby and Jo to China, his first sentence is “who is going to make him milk at night, I won’t be able to do it, I need my sleep”….i remember this…this is such an irresponsible talked from a papa..Second time, I bought the return tickets (from KK to Macau) a week back during Airasia promotion, he said this again “why bring back the baby, can you cope with 2 kids at the same time?”…ok, I remember this again. Baby is a max problem for him, ya, maybe he just prefers us to stay in KK till the baby is old enough, or maybe he wants me to give my baby to my MIL, but I tell you..i won't do that, everyone knows my MIL doesn't like me and I really can’t see a good reason for me to pass the baby to her. I am a mother, I will take care my kids with my full contribution, this is a least line..he said these just reflected how selfish of him. He has his points or maybe he said these for my good sake, but what I felt is he is totally selfish and irresponsible. He even told me it is necessary to hire a maid for his mother when I told him maybe I will let my MIL to take care the baby for few days when I am going to KL. But, please, is it wise to hire a maid for few days only? If he can think to hire a maid, then how come he couldn't think to hire a full time nanny in China who can take care the baby and do some house chores at the same time? So, is it distinct for you to see the situation? He loves his mother, of course, this is his role to love his mother, but he seldom thinks of me even when his mother torturing me during my previous confinement time.

Last Saturday even funny, I was crying while I was lazing on the bed…I never thought he would come in to have his nap and let him see the situation accidentally, he did ask me why but I didn’t tell him, he didn't go further and dozed off. See, he made me dropped to downhill more, even I don’t tell him what has happened but I also yearning for a simple pat or hug. Then at night, he asked me is it whether I don't have a daughter so I felt so down after he got the traces by reading my blog especially the title “I want daughter”. Funny o? I said no…then he said maybe due to I don't have suitable place to do my confinement, ok, I admitted this is part of my problem…he didn't discuss with me further and just said, maybe he should buy another house for me in KK since I don't want to stay in his current house where my PILs will visit the place all the time…he said this but I can't see any clearer picture about it..i know that's not wise again to buy a house in KK since we have one already, we just hope we can settle the house loan in KL asap and buy another property in KL rather than in KK. KK sounds deserted sometimes…

Maybe I am just so lonely and triggered these blues, I need a person who can talk to me, the whole day only Jo who is able to talk to me but the talks are kid's talk, I want an intimacy talk but I just lacked of it..for him, living room is TV time, bedroom is sleeping time..then how about his wife time? Got, talk rubbish of couse have…I tell you, everynight I have to doze off before him, I hate to see the dead silent night after he falls asleep….i prefer sleep before him at least I won't be so down to think why there is nobody to talk to me again tonight..

That's my life here…you see me happy? No..i am not…

OK, I assume he loves me very much in the way of “I will work hard and give you comfortable life, but other things just don’t bother me”…..ok, so I just own his money but not him..i will remember this again..

The fringe trimming

We seldom bring Jo to barber, that's why people always think he is a "girl" if just by looking his hair. His last hair trimmed was on January before he started his school. Currently his fringe was so annoying as the fringe kept stinging his eyes but he still refused to pay a visit to barber. Due to his super slow growing hair, we seldom bring him to barber and that's a reason why he hates being trimmed by barber.

As being a silly mummy, i put on my hairclip for him for stopping the fringe over stimulating his eyes and i told him "DOG" has to put hairclip in order to look pretty as that time he said he's a "DOG".

This time we failed to bring him to barber again no matter how we coaxed him, somemore he even threw us a big fuss with teary and runny nose face, that's why hubby decided to do the trimming job by himself. See, the fringe just like being bit by a dog, anyhow, he looks cute with his short fringe. Hubby even commented Jo's face is as round and big as mummy's face after shorten the fringe...that's what i hate it most!!

A long story...

Most of the mommies thought i am from KL, emm..actually i am from KK, Sabah, so does my hubby. I was staying in KL over the past 9 years, so my Jo is a Selangor born child. I am going back to Sabah tomorrow with my Jo, will be staying there till March. I am worrying how to bring Jo boarding the flight as he keeps saying he doesn't want to go back. He said his papa will be very pity to stay alone without him, how sweet and touch when his papa heard this. :)

I am in dilemma now, i feel like not going back too but i know i can't cancel my trip as my parents also looking forward on my return. In fact, i miss those foods too, i even dreamt about those foods occasionally like fried meehoon, nasi lemak, asam laksa and the famous pork noodle ("sang nyuk mian") in KK too. I miss the sun and beach there, i miss my family and friends but i know my Jo will miss his papa when his papa not around. We are going to apart more than 6 weeks this time, however this is just a beginning as from June onwards, Jo and me will be staying in Sabah as i am going to deliver my baby there. Hopefully he can stay well there without his papa along.

Since i won't be online as frequent as in China due to no internet connection in my house, so i am announced a long blog break now. I will continue my blog hopping again once i am back to China. So, let me to greet you all Happy Valentine & Happy Chinese New Year in advance. :)

Below is the backdated post:

Happening 1

Jo had puked thrice over the Christmas week (Monday, Friday & Saturday), the serious one was on 22/12, he puked over hubby's shirt when we just went inside the hotel to have our Winter Solstice buffet. Jo looked pale and languid on the chair, so i mixed up two chairs in order he could take a short nap there. He even shown no interest over his favor fruit cake, so he didn't take any food over the whole night.

On 24/12, we went to HK to buy my digital camera, i puked when the taxi just arrived the custom, i didn't take my puked as a troubled as i thought was due to car sickness but my situation was getting worse during our shopping in HK. I felt cold and nausea and had another puked once i just stepped in my house. The wretchedly episode kept contunuing for me to had another twice puked on Christmas Day, i was so weak until i had to lie on the bed for the whole day, other than nausea i suffered dizziness too. My Jo suffered diarrhea on the eve too, then the germs just spreaded to hubby. Hubby's tummy upset last till 27/12, so we suspected we had food poisoning as we took oyster on the day of Winter Solstice.

Santa Claus looks so scary for Jo, he wanted to take photo with him when he first saw him. Jo looked extremely cheerful when we were queueing for our turn, but he cried out and insisted not to take photo with Santa Claus once right to our turn. Of course i won't miss the chance, look at the photo then you will know how was him, he just looked very unhappy and fearful when taking this photo.

Happening 2

I knew Jazz on 2004, that time she still pregnant with Faythe and finally i met her first time when she was in Shen Zhen on 27/12. My Jo was so happy and rapturous when both Jazz and her hubby at my home, he loves her hubby so much although they speak different language. He even wanted to follow her hubby away and cried when they just left my house. He kept asking me where are uncle and aunty. So i told him if we have chance to go back to KL, i will bring him to meet her hubby again, provided he still remembers him.

My Sunday in HK

My to do list:

Buy GNC's vitamin C

Buy digital camera or watch

Buy Jo's shoes

Buy a bag

Buy breastpump

Change Jo's toy

But...

Though hubby was kind enough to withdraw money from the ATM and prepared himself to pay my Christmas present, unfortunately, we only managed to change Jo's toys and the rest still on hold!

We were walking around to hunt a good digital camera from one place to another, but i still can't make up my mind which one is the best, i have 2 eyeing items, Canon (Digital IXUS 900 Ti or IXUS 750 Ti) and Olympus (MJU-750), actually both of them don't have special functions like Samsung does, but Samsung doesn't produce good photo quality than Canon and Olympus.

Then, hubby suggested we take a look on my Citizen watch since he planned to buy 2 presents for me, at first we thought it costs HKD1000+, but it costs HKD3000+ that even more expensive than the digital camera, crazy la, if this price i better buy other famous branded watch.

After i went to check the Avent's breastpump at Mothercare, but it's out of stock!

Then, we shopped to every sport shop to buy a sport shoes for Jo, from Adidas, Nike till Timberland, can you believe all ran out of sizes. OK, due to the season, i understand.

Last, i just felt tired to buy my vitamin C and bag as i felt very very down, walked the whole day but buy nothing. Luckily i had a good appetite to gobble down the beef steak and spaghetti.

So, on the way back to China, i just kept counting what my hubby had bought me throughout this year, oh, finally i remember, he bought me the Nokia N70 on 1 Jan, and a notebook on Valentine, ok la, if no Christmas present also nevermind !

Oh, ya, finally we managed to take a family photo that's long long due!

Realism

2 October 2006

We consulted this Dr.Fok at Town Health Centre in Shatin today as Jo needed to take his Pneumococcal and Hep.B jabs. However, the doctor suggested Jo to carry another Hep.B blood test again, i then asked him why the test is necessary since he had already tested it in China and the HBsAb shown NEGATIVE. He replied unkindly "Depend on you want to believe the China's skill or HK's skill. I have to see the report first then only i can tell you whether booster is needed or started from the first dose, if his HBsAb really shown NEGATIVE then what for i give you the booster, right? Somemore, it's one out of million who doesn't produce antibody, so it is good for taking the test here." Then, I turned my head back to hubby and discussed the blood test issue after listening his long-winded talked, at the meantime this doctor started to show us his irritating and impatient look and suddenly he said "How about you all go outside and discuss?" i was so shocked when i heard this, we're in the room to consult him but he's expelling us. I quickly said, "OK, we will think outside but please give him the Pneumococcal jab now." When he jabbing Jo, his look also like very "ba-bai" one, hey, i was so angry by his offended attitude and still forced myself to calm down in front of him. After 15 mins, we had to MEET him again as we needed him to draw Jo's blood. This round, we paid HKD950 (HKD650 Pneumococcal and HKD300 Blood test on Hep.B's groups) to this doctor.

14 October 2006

We're at Town Health Centre in Shatin again as Jo needed to take the Hep.B Booster. His report shown his HBsAb is only 14mIU/ml, if below 10mIU/ml then it should be started from the first dose, if above 50mIU/ml then it's considered POSITIVE. This time we consulted Dr.Ng a lady doctor, wow, this lady doctor even more unfriendlier than Dr.Fok, she didn't say anything when we stepping into her room, no greeting and no smiling. She just sitting there and filling the syringe then gave jab to Jo. Everything was very fast finished until i wasn't dare to ask question. While we're waiting for our bill, i suddenly recalled that i want to ask for some cream as Jo has some mild rashes on his right leg, then i told the nurse that i would like to see the doctor again. By the time i opened the door, i already heard her friendly voice "Ya, what can i help you?", then she just said and said non-stop, wow, why suddenly could be so friendly and totally like 2 different people. I finally understood why the first situation is wide difference with the second situation when i was paying my bill. This bill is HKD435 (Hep.B Booster HKD250, HKD100 Consultation and HKD85 Rashes Cream), you know why it's such a wide difference? Because doctor can't charge consultation if only giving jab, no wonder the first round she was so lazy to entertain me LOL! But it's so expensive to charge HKD100 for consultation as i only stayed less than 2 mins in her room, somemore it's only a wee bit cream then charged me HKD85 also unreasonable LOL! Hey, no wonder she can hold LV Bag LOL! If i were her, i can hold LV and even Hermes LOL!

17 October 2006

We rushed to this Town Health Centre again during afternoon as Jo was so sick. He has swollen eyes, diarrhea, vomit, sensitive nose and cough. We reached there around 3pm, the nurse told me they have one famous paed Dr.Roy but his appointment is full until 5pm, then she said they have this Dr.Ng and Dr.Fok are available, of course i would choose Dr.Fok since i know Dr.Ng is a realist. This time Dr.Fok was very friendly and spoke very softly to us, OK, i know, because it charges CONSULTATION. Doctor said Jo's eyes was infected as it kept discharging a greenish mucus, and the greenish mucus from nose was due to sensitive nose.Sigh, if flu then still able to cure but sensitive nose is hard to relief. OK, this time it charged HKD220 (HKD100 Consultation and HKD120 Medication) and i felt like more worthwhile at least i got 5 types of medicines.

Hubby said sarcastically to me "I don't know why you love HK so much, now can you see the real face of HK people?", Hey, i love HK is because HK is a shopping and ambrosia heaven and not because of people LOL!

Mommy is so BUSY

My Jo was very boring this morning as mommy was so bad that don't entertain him but just kept chatting with other mommies through MSN.

However, he still happily to play my cooking utensils and clouting my rice cooker as a drum. Oh, the making of a live band.

See, i have so many friends to chat with! Oh, my Jo is sleeping now and i won't be guilty for not entertaining him.

OK, have to continue my chat....