I hardly have time to sit down in front of my laptop and updating my blog ever since my live-in maid left, and my daily life is simply like a maid life. Luckily found a part time maid on Wednesday, not really a "qualified" maid but at least she can help me in doing house chores. It had one lady approached me and asked for being my cooker, be frankly, i was quite tempted to hire her but after much thinking, it's better not because i didn't know about her health background so better don't take risk, what's more i am bearing another baby. The "cleanliness" and "healthiness" are always my key factors when comes to employ a maid.
I went mad yesterday because Eli had been crying unreasonable for more than 2 hours in afternoon, and i had lost my cool and my mind went berserk, i was screaming at him and eventually i was also crying crazily there. I felt very helpless and hopeless, i didn't know how to please a little boy and i didn't know how to make him eat his porridge and drink his milk. Everything just like attacking me at the same time, and i didn't have any weapon to withstand those attacks. I have been in trouble for looking after my boys, and i have been busy in house chores, but it just like my effort was wasted and nobody would appreciate me at the end.
After this incident, i really do not have confidence to cope with 3 kids next time, Eli still young and even not reaches 2 by the time baby arrives, that's why i am quite worrying how to make my attention equalize for both, well, should be equalized for 3 as including Jo . I can foresee my future life and has been thinking to stop blogging. Blogging has been taking up most of my time, so as a mother 0f 3 little kids next time, i think i left no choice but have to desert my blogs. Sigh...
Labels: Make me CRAZY, myself