I hardly have time to sit down in front of my laptop and updating my blog ever since my live-in maid left, and my daily life is simply like a maid life. Luckily found a part time maid on Wednesday, not really a "qualified" maid but at least she can help me in doing house chores. It had one lady approached me and asked for being my cooker, be frankly, i was quite tempted to hire her but after much thinking, it's better not because i didn't know about her health background so better don't take risk, what's more i am bearing another baby. The "cleanliness" and "healthiness" are always my key factors when comes to employ a maid.
I went mad yesterday because Eli had been crying unreasonable for more than 2 hours in afternoon, and i had lost my cool and my mind went berserk, i was screaming at him and eventually i was also crying crazily there. I felt very helpless and hopeless, i didn't know how to please a little boy and i didn't know how to make him eat his porridge and drink his milk. Everything just like attacking me at the same time, and i didn't have any weapon to withstand those attacks. I have been in trouble for looking after my boys, and i have been busy in house chores, but it just like my effort was wasted and nobody would appreciate me at the end.
After this incident, i really do not have confidence to cope with 3 kids next time, Eli still young and even not reaches 2 by the time baby arrives, that's why i am quite worrying how to make my attention equalize for both, well, should be equalized for 3 as including Jo . I can foresee my future life and has been thinking to stop blogging. Blogging has been taking up most of my time, so as a mother 0f 3 little kids next time, i think i left no choice but have to desert my blogs. Sigh...
I went mad yesterday because Eli had been crying unreasonable for more than 2 hours in afternoon, and i had lost my cool and my mind went berserk, i was screaming at him and eventually i was also crying crazily there. I felt very helpless and hopeless, i didn't know how to please a little boy and i didn't know how to make him eat his porridge and drink his milk. Everything just like attacking me at the same time, and i didn't have any weapon to withstand those attacks. I have been in trouble for looking after my boys, and i have been busy in house chores, but it just like my effort was wasted and nobody would appreciate me at the end.
After this incident, i really do not have confidence to cope with 3 kids next time, Eli still young and even not reaches 2 by the time baby arrives, that's why i am quite worrying how to make my attention equalize for both, well, should be equalized for 3 as including Jo . I can foresee my future life and has been thinking to stop blogging. Blogging has been taking up most of my time, so as a mother 0f 3 little kids next time, i think i left no choice but have to desert my blogs. Sigh...
4 comments:
Hey, hang on there. I'm sure you can do it. You still need to do housework even though you already get a part time maid? You cook for lunch and dinner everyday? Why don't you consider of getting catered food? Hmm..not sure whether I can cope with 3 kids in 3 months time. Jia you..!!
oh...i can understand..it is definitely not easy...
Don't be too hard on yourself. We are all humans anyway...take it easy! When you are about to "burst" the next time, maybe you can just ignore them and put on an ear phone, listening to some soothing music, try to calm down. This is better for both you and Eli too. Just let him cry if he wants to...crying doesn't hurt..
Hope you can get a maid soon...don't stress yourself up. Take care!!
Yvonne - no, i do not have to cook, 3 meals are all outside foods, but i still have to cook porridge for Eli. As for the housework, i still need to do it because the maid just come for 2 hours in the morning, so most of the time my house would like being ransacked at late evening, maybe i should learn how to open one eye and close one eye.
huisia, I just went thru the same with Keira crying non-stop and want my attention.. I also yelled and yelled and I only have one child! i totally understand how you feel.
about the cleaning, i close both eyes already.
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