I really felt like strangling him just now, though i didn't do it but i gave him a very good whipping because i simply couldn't control myself. I asked him to leave the house asap, and i really meant it! I don't know why i could have such a boy who always drives me nuts and he is indeed a stubborn boy who doesn't afraid of whipping. No matter what approaches i used, soft or hard, he still acts the same! I am kind of losing patience with him, that's why i had a mind that i wanted to strangle him. Every morning i wake up with tiredness body, then follow by a day long torture of the boys, i tell you, i really feel mental distress ever since i came back from China. I don't feel like being a mother anymore as i am incapable for upbringing a good child, i have been using a lot of harsh words on him although sometimes i hate to be a mad mother who is always screaming and shouting at my kids, but other than screaming and shouting, i really have no idea what is the best method to stop my anger as well as to stop my son's frenzy behavior. My mother keeps on telling me to control my temper as there is still another baby inside me, but tell me how to control myself as i still have to deal with a problem boy everyday! I don't wish to say those cursing words, but when my blood boils with anger, i really hate him! I have kept reminding myself i should have remembered those days when he brought me joys especially when he was still a little and fragile baby so that the joyous could calm down my anger, but it's just impossible as now i feel like the hate is more than the joyous.