2 is always enough for me, and i have never thought of having 3, that's why it has indeed taken many weeks for me to accept the truth. I know i sound pretty irresponsible, but honestly this is really not i was wanted. My mind, had been having many plans and suddenly all plans ruined, though i have to accept everything, in the meantime i still somehow very mind it. And, i am getting very nervous, been thinking negative, been complaining this and that, in short, i just feel so much burdens instead of having joy. The most importantly is i do not have confidence to take care of 3 kids by myself, the blues of having another baby just shrouded me a lot, and i still cannot relax myself even i have been receiving a lot of pep talks from friends.