Thursday, September 25, 2008

Blues...

2 is always enough for me, and i have never thought of having 3, that's why it has indeed taken many weeks for me to accept the truth. I know i sound pretty irresponsible, but honestly this is really not i was wanted. My mind, had been having many plans and suddenly all plans ruined, though i have to accept everything, in the meantime i still somehow very mind it. And, i am getting very nervous, been thinking negative, been complaining this and that, in short, i just feel so much burdens instead of having joy. The most importantly is i do not have confidence to take care of 3 kids by myself, the blues of having another baby just shrouded me a lot, and i still cannot relax myself even i have been receiving a lot of pep talks from friends.

4 comments:

Vien said...

If you are pregnant, Congrats! I'm sure you will enjoy it. Hey, maybe it's a girl..you've always told me you always want a girl. :)

etceteramommy said...

There's always a reason for everything. The baby is a gift from the one above to you. You'll enjoy it, esp when you see the three siblings love :D Congrats ya.

kelly said...

Hi huisia, congrats!Maybe it's a little princess this time... :)

Anonymous said...

huisia,
I have been reading your blogs. I totally understand how you feel, 3kids with no help and stying in a foreign land.I just gave birth to my 3rd kid an now in confinement.i always tot 2 kids are enough, somemorei had a boy and a girl already.When I was pregnant with my 3rd kid, so many things happened in my life and i was severely under stress. No one understand, not even my husband. He still scolds me over small matters. That hurt me so much. Now the baby is born, looking a her angelic look, I feel so guilty.She was the one I talked to when I was so stress and depressed, when she was in my tummy.Now for the sake of my 3 kids, I have to give in..