Pumping milk, the more you do pumping, the more you can slim down

I pump my breast milk 3 to 4 times everyday, the most i could pump so far is only 6oz. I guessed i could pump more if my Avent breast pump was working properly. The valve is not functioning well due to the valve has loose after umpteenth time of sterilizing it. I want to buy a replacement, but of course have to wait till after my confinement. Milk pumping makes me feel hungry all the time, i wanted to restrain myself from eating but i just could not control my desire. I want to eat, the more the better and have been doting in eating more toast with kaya butter. Gosh, butter is so fattening, but i keep telling myself that once or twice or thrice a week doesn't sound overly for a lady still under her confinement period. I know that simply an excuse for myself to eat more. So what? Since breastfeeding can help shedding off more fats, and i also know which diet pills that work for me. So why still want to feel guilty?

Moreover, i don't think i can eat any toast once hubby is going back to China since he is the one who bought the toast for me. Speaking to hubby, yeah, hubby is going back to China tomorrow, but he will be coming back to KK again on 27/5 provided there is no outbreak swine flu in Shen Zhen. If there is an outbreak, better for him to stay there instead of coming back. So if he is not coming back then i will just have a family dinner as a full moon celebration for my baby instead of celebrating the full moon in restaurant. However, we would still book the restaurant tables, if the full moon party is canceled then our deposit will just let it be forfeited. I pray hard that hubby can come back safely and Shen Zhen won't happen swine flu cases. Not because the full moon celebration, is because i miss him so much.